I’ve had a difficult summer. Lost love I never wanted to lose. Stood on grounds that were crumbling underneath me. Doubted a familiar face. Collected pieces of something broken. It passed, but I was still there, the entire summer I was still there. There were days when eating felt like a chore. I couldn’t articulate the words to describe why I was the way I was. I couldn’t find the words. Other days I had too much to say and talked to people I wish I hadn’t talked to, but when you’re lonely you do stupid things. I spent most of my summer in fear and shame: fear of losing, fear of being, shame of losing, shame of being. It almost felt like that’s all I ever was, a leftover of something bad. I often forget my heart and my love. I’m light and I’m fun. I love live music and a good sunset. I love making my friends laugh. I dance and it looks funny but I still dance. I lost a love that wasn’t mine to lose. I still have me and my heart, and the love my heart has is fucking mine.#foryoupage #fyp | Country: EG